I think it might be the time for a big change like this.  I think I have officially decided in myself that it is time to move on.  It is time to get out of this place.  

I’m terrified.  But, I’m optimistic.  

One thing is for certain… this summer, I will make enough memories to last a life time.  

I’m juggling my rekindled love for EDM and my previously found obsession for rockabilly/Irish punk.  God, just all different genres of punk, really.  Seriously, so good.  

I feel like I’m on crack with all of the music I listen to.  Electroswing always seems to make an appearance too, haha. 

Rearranging.  Everything.  My whole house is in uproar.  I’ve been at it for about eight hours and there’s no end in sight.  But it’s finally starting to feel like my own place.  Any remnants of the boy I lived with for such a short time are fading away. 

This is my sanctuary.  This is my retreat.  I will feel good here.  Hell, I already do.  

It’s amazing what a little Spring cleaning in the middle of Winter can do for the psyche. 

This is me.  
On the left, you have a younger but thirty pound heavier me.
On the right, you have an older but thirty pound lighter me. 
I’ve been at this for a while, but made the decision about six months ago to eat mostly vegan.  As of late, it’s been completely vegan.  I am so much happier and healthier as compared to before. 
Now it’s time to get rid of some pesky twenty more pounds.  And the only way to do that is to start exercising.  Which I kind of hate to do, haha. 

This is me.  

On the left, you have a younger but thirty pound heavier me.

On the right, you have an older but thirty pound lighter me. 

I’ve been at this for a while, but made the decision about six months ago to eat mostly vegan.  As of late, it’s been completely vegan.  I am so much happier and healthier as compared to before. 

Now it’s time to get rid of some pesky twenty more pounds.  And the only way to do that is to start exercising.  Which I kind of hate to do, haha. 

First Step

There are many, many things I wish to accomplish this year.  What better than to put them in list form?

1.) Drop another 20 pounds.  It isn’t so much about losing the weight, but toning up and becoming more active.  I’ve got the healthy eating down pretty well, just need to add in some exercise. 

2.) Learn to ride a motorcycle.  This.  This all day.  I want nothing more than to jump on a bike and cruise around.  

3.) Go camping.  And I mean real camping.  No electricity.  Just me, my tent, and whatever I can fit in my backpack.  I guess it’s a good thing that my backpack is huge. 

4.) Acquire more tattoos.  Seriously.  All I want is to be covered from head to toe, just about.  The three I have just aren’t doing it for me. 

5.) Save money.  Lots and lots of money.  Well, as much as I can anyways.  I am so tired of scraping, living paycheck to paycheck.  And worrying if I can afford both rent and my car payment every month.  Spoiler:  I can’t!  Not this month, at least.  I’ll have to figure that out within the next week. 

6.) Play more video games.  Sounds counter productive, but I do enjoy them so much.  I just have a hard time finding the time to sit down and log some serious hours on one.  And I have so many to play.  Fuckin’ Steam sales. 

7.) Get back into school.  This.  More than anything.  I need to do this.  It’s been two years.  I feel like such a bum.  And at least this time, I have a pretty good idea of what I want to do.  I’m going into nutrition.  I’ll need all of the luck in the world. 

8.) Learn to dance.  Really, just learning how to move my hips without the aide of a hula hoop or alcohol would be awesome. 

9.) Get better at hula hooping.  It’s so much fun.  And I feel awesome while I’m doing it.  Plus, it would help with that whole being active thing I’m going for this year. 

10.) Be more confident.  I just want to feel like myself all of the time.  Not just around those that know me very well.  I want to be myself around anyone, even those I just met.  Being shy is not a fun or desirable thing.  And, I really even shouldn’t be.  I do have a lot to offer. 

There are other things too, I’m sure.  I’m just drawing a bit of a blank.  Basically, I want to reinvent myself this year.  I’m young, single, and really have a chance to improve myself and be the person that I want to be.  I’m hopeful.  And scared.  So scared.  But it’s time to shake it off and pursue everything that I really want. 

Wish me luck.